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The one I'm pushing through.

Remember when I kept up with my blog?
More importantly: remember when I thought I was going to simplify this year?

I told you all I was going to keep things focused on 1 word: simple. My life, my goals, my home, my job, my thoughts- KEEP IT SIMPLE.

Have I done that at all?
If you think that I have, you must be new here.

It's literally one month away from being 2019, and I have been anything but simple this year.

I changed schools. We continued to gather clutter. We have yet to get a grip on our finances. I still overthink every little thing I do. My house is a constant disaster area. My new school has been a challenge at every step. Personal challenges and relationships have been a struggle. I have done everything except keep it "simple" this year.

In every sense of my "simple" goal, I failed.

Sure, I have a month left. So I could get back on track. I could try my best to simplify what I can.

But sometimes, I feel like I try so hard to NOT try so hard.
What is that?
It's not a new concept. But it's something with which I have always had a hard time.

I guess I don't know where this blog is going- much like most of my blogs. I just write because I have something on my mind and they just sort of take me where they take me.

I guess, life just isn't simple. Not saying you can't take steps to make it less complicated. I just don't think will ever be a simple thinker, a simple mother, a simple wife, a simple teacher.
I just won't.
Life isn't supposed to be easy and simple.

So maybe my word wasn't what I needed this year.
Maybe we don't need a focus word.
Trying to focus on one thing, can distract from all the beautiful things that happen all year long.

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