The one with (no) follow through

"I am happier than a teacher on summer break!"
-someone who has never taught.

This is my 6th summer break as a full time teacher. And I should be thrilled to be on summer break, right?! I'm just not though. Here's my issue: I want to do so much. SO MUCH.

I want to write.
I want to read.
I want to plan.
I want to study.
I want to chill.
I want to sleep.
I want to work out.
I want to hang with friends.
I want to teach my toddler things.
I want to date my husband.
I want to clean.
I want to eat healthy.
I want to meal prep.
I want to start a project.
I want to FINISH a project.
I want to practice self care.
I want doing creative stuff.
I want to do some work stuff.

And I want to start AND FINISH it all right now!
But it's such a huge list, that I get overwhelmed and don't do any of it. I always feel like "I have all summer!" And then-
I feel like you don't have to be super observant to know what's coming-
SUMMER ENDS, with me not having accomplished anything on said list.

But this problem isn't exclusive to teachers or students in the summer.

When we want to accomplish something with a loose timeline, things get put on the back burner.
Side note: back burner is a reference I've never really understood. One, because ya girl don't cook. And two, does the back burner like not get as hot or something?? I feel like the back burner still does just the same job as the front burner, right? I digress.
A loose timeline is never great for me to get something done. I mean, let's be real, a TIGHT timeline BARELY works with me already.

I know my goals and dreams are important to pursue. I know they should be on the "front burner" or whatever. I just can never seem to do what the experts call "follow through."

So how do we fix it? How do we solve it?

I know you don't come to these blogs expecting answers; devotees will know this is a no answer zone.

But with that being said, I don't think we solve this issue. I think we just do the best with the goals we can accomplish, when we can accomplish them. Our lists will get a check when we get to it. All the burners will eventually get...cooked?
This is why I should stick with a metaphor I know something about.

Is this really how I'm ending this blog? Meh. I'll finish it eventually.

;)

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